Originally Posted by
myfreedom 
I wish I could give you an honest answer but I don't have one. I left last year then came back. I know nothing will change and I will probably never feel love for this man again. We have been thru way worse than that incident. A lot of it is fear. I have my roller coaster days every week. One day I can say "ok I am really gonna leave for good" and then two days later I feel I will stick it out alittle while longer. I hate feeling like that but it is the truth.
This is my truth, too. I stay because of fear. My AH's DUI should have been his bottom, but it wasn't. I think it was mine but I've still chose to do nothing about it as far as changing my living situation. I love certain things about my AH but so much trust has been shattered and the intimacy is gone that I'm not sure there's much hope for me to want to continue with him. Right now, I'm just praying for God to step in, in some way, and show me a new path. I feel like I'm stuck at that proverbial 'fork in the road'.