Just because your family members have lived long lives with alcohol, doesn't mean you will.
I have seen "Wet Brain" up close and personal.
It is a 60yr old woman walking in the halls of a nursing home mumbling to herself and talking to pot plants and dropping her pants and doing a poo on the floor in the hall.
She wouldn't eat anything and was dying from malnutrition. Feeding tubes were out of the question as she would remove them. I walked along the hall with her for hours feeding her fish fingers and bread to get her eating again. We got her to sit at the table but after one or two bites of food she was off and running.
She had been a high functioning business woman with a family until her mid fifties.
From your post, I was instantly struck by how serious your condition is, yet you are not as concerned it seems.
I am very glad you are here at SR and hope that you decide to quit drinking.
Please do not be offended. I am nearly 2 years off drink.
I had quit 6 yrs ago for two years and yes, absolutely drank more after being dry for the two years. I won't bother boring you with the quantities.