14 days and feel like such a loser....
i have not posted in a very long time. i have been in the on again/off again cycle of alcohol these last 2 years. I had a little time under my belt before that. but, have honestly been an alcolic these last 8 years.. of course it got worse and worse, but slowly for me.... Anyway, i have burned so many bridges, permanently messed up relationships, cant get a job,(luckily, no legal troubles) I am just pissed about what my life situation is, and no you cant just change it, i know that.. ... The fact that I am again 2 weeks sober is great, but now I get to feel all of the crap I have been drinking over and it's coming to haunt me in a big way.. I just got a sponsor and go to AA daily.. I think I am doing the right things for recovery, but this all just sucks. I know I can't drink - however, this reality I have made for myself blows...