Day 1... again
Did it again and this time was 1,000 times worse. I didn't go to meetings, let it get in my head that I was happy and fine and would get to one sooner or later. I got lonely lately and last night told myself it would be ok. It had also been weighing on me that I hadn't been honest about my sober time with my therapist. I'm learning. I'm just doing it by process of elimination. I had been feeling like going to meetings would be a chore. Today I'm glad i can be around other people who understand the hurt I'm feeling today and I'm starting to look forward to my first meeting tomorrow. I feel so sick today I actually felt a few times I could possibly even die. Took until now at 9:30 pm to muster the energy to post this