been a while
…started drinking 3 months ago (after 16 months of not drinking).
No benders, mostly just a couple of wines or beers but things are ramping up and the other night I had a whole bottle of wine (my old trick).
The next day felt sick & hungover, what a waste of a day.
Mostly tho I can see how drinking like that really triggers self loathing, minor depression and a kind of fogginess that makes me indecisive and not feel like doing anything
This forum helped me a lot when I was quitting, its interesting to see this AVRT thing. I think I remember it but never looked into it.
Its just what I needed to read and has helped me snap back to feeling like I am in control of this.
Had been trying 'not to drink' for the last couple of weeks and would give in to 'those feelings'.
Its helpful to be able to separate them out from myself and observe them as another existence. I'm like f%$& you beast!!!