Wow, your Mom sounds like my step Dad who passed away about 10 years ago. He was actually the better on growing up. My Mom drank on occasion and was a terrible drunk when she did but they were both terrible parents equally. I must admit life would have been way more pleasant with him sober but even not sober her was an *******. They both were. I had a miserable childhood but survived. Now as an adult I struggle with drinking now and then. I have admitted my problem with it though. They never did and did not or will not till the day they die. One is dead and one more to go and no admission of a fault or sign of guilt for what they put us kids through. I on the other hand admit I have a problem and am trying very hard to deal with it and get help. I love my kids and spoil them rotten because I want them to have a life i never had. My parents were selfish pigs.