Today, emotionally, has been pure hell for me. And I noticed, walking ot my car, I had NO desire to drink. The idea seemed preposterous to me. Now, do I still have thoughts like "Oh, this is too freaking easy. You'll never do this forever" or "You can have a drink. One drink. Geesh" I just now recognize it for what it is and don't dwell on it. I'm like, "Ok, well, I don't WANT to drink" and I move on.
I guess the best way for me to describe it is that I have taken that big bottle of tequila, wrapped it up. put it away and I have no desire to go get it back down from where it is.
I've also been working on the Shifting concept I've read about here. Very fascinating.
All I know is this: I'm sober. Not for today. But overall. I am sober.
And now I need to go punch a bag or meditate like my counselor said, or just sit still with my feelings. ARGH!
But hey, I'm proud of myself for reaching that place where drinking is NOT an option.