Fitz, apart from being a sweetie pie, what are you good at?
Is there anything you could do in the early hours when you are not sleeping that may help?
Something you can really concentrate on, get your teeth into, so before you know it you are drowsy or hours have past.
I know you love helping others and the less fortunate, but something that you can do on your own, that is easily accessible, that is a bit therapeutic.
I don't know but maybe woodwork or carpentry.
Family tree investigation.
Model building - ships?
Painting or photography?
Have a think and give me a serious answer, no humour trying to reflect away your hurt feelings, fear and sadness. Which is another thing you are good at!
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