I am so so glad you are here. I was exactly where you were at one point. I couldn't see the reward at the end of the tunnel. I spent all my time convincing myself it wasn't worth it because I was left with all the pain I had caused. Just by you being here you are making the right choice. Give it some time and you will start to see past the pain. You already rock because you are here. Give yourself a pat on the back!!