young, angry, and poor...
Join Date: Oct 2004
Location: Springfield Missouri
Posts: 10
Why Today?
Not feeling so good right now.....I've been reading everybodys posts and have been trying to stay positive but its just not working. Everyone says just for today, but what makes today any different? Every other day in my life for as long as I can remember has been nothing but failure and pain and so why should today be any different? After all its so much easier to just give up and pick up a bottle. I can't help but think that a hangover has to feel better than all these doubts and pain from all my mistakes.....I guess thats why I'm still here because I don't want today to be another mistake to make me regret tomorrow. So just for today I'll not drink, just for today I'll be sober, even if it kills me, no matter how much it hurts right now. Just for today I'll be strong enough to face my pain, just for today I'll buckle down and deal with my problems, just for today I'll pay bills instead of getting drunk. Just for today....
layne
I was gonna take a valium but I couldn't get my teeth unclenched....