I think the problem is with us lot is that we have incredibly selective thinking. And this thinking is what causes are downfall. We tend to forget all the times drugs or booze had us up against the ropes. We forget the fear and the terror. Our minds provide us with a slightly softened down version of what we actually went through. It also tends to provide us with the experiences you could consider were fun during your using period. It's a horrible thing selective thinking. You just have to remember how bad it was.