Long day today. I feel kinda anxious and I'm not sure why. Feeling emotions is making me uneasy bc I never really learned how to deal with any type of feelings, I've always been numb or hungover and cruise thru the days. Kinda feel like I'm trying to find somewhere to run or hide till it passes but I guess I just have to let it ride out. I will not drink over it tho, I've worked too hard these past 32 days to throw it away.