Meso, I thought I could get sober by myself ...with just SR. That works for some. Many actually. Some use other methods.
But I found that for my particular type of person and drunk I need to be face to face with people in addtion to SR. The two together are amazingly supportive.
Maybe you should try something that brings you face to face with people like you.
Aa comes to mind. I go and take what I need and leave what I don't agree with but overall it's awesome to find and be around others.
Sounds like you are an island in a sea of drinkers.
I really hope you find it and get it soon. Hate to have something more happens needlessly to you.
Ken