Ugh I feel like we are totally similar people. My thought process has always been like yours that you described above. I'm on day 3 and all I can think about is the future and what will happen when this weekend when I want to go out and maybe I can have just one drink. But I know that's not what I want. That's not what I *should* do and not what is going to help me. I'm pretty scared, but at least we all have each other to talk about all this with.