You make me remember a time when I was stopping a fight in the bar. And I got knocked the f** out, and on the way down hit my head on the corner of the floorboard.
A couple seconds later coming to, and being taken in to get those same staples.. I drank that next day, and after several dui's I drank the next day. After wrecking my cars or being fired from work, I drank the next day..One and on for dedcades.. Nothing scared me anymore other than not being able to drink....
Till I accepted I had a problem there was nothing to be done. Its been a year and half with a couple slips. And I think about drinking now and then. I just cant. I know what happens ... Well thats the problem I never know what is going to happen ... I cant stop once I start..
You got a ton of good AA out there, I hope maybe just maybe you will go give it a shot... Pun intended.. ;-)