I still have staples in my freaking head from the last drunk-walking-black-out incident that occurred this past weekend, and my mind has been trying to develop ways to continue to keep drinking.
My alcoholic side is telling me:
1. I can only drink at home of stuff that I brew, and drinks I prepare.
2. I can buy a breathalyzer for smartphone and get an app to check how drunk I am and stop... but I don't have a smartphone
3. If I go out in public I am only allowed to drink with people that understand my circumstances and wont push me to drink more. Designated drinking buddies.
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So far that is what my mind is telling me
My head hurts slightly and feels uncomfortable with staples in there and I am planning my next drink...
I went for a checkup today and my doctor recommended me see a psychiatrist, and get blood work. To bad the psychi is in late October, I would have liked it now! My doctor looked like a concerned mother would, that made me feel like poop.
I haven't told my mom, and I don't want to, I would disappoint and worry her greatly.
Well this next smilie has nothing to do with anything
, but it looked cool, and they kinda make me happy