Hi Linda, welcome to SR.
First of all... congratulations on being sober for 10 years - what an amazing achievement! I really hope you are very proud of yourself for that, because you should be.
I really feel for you with regards to the depression. I have had many severe bouts of depression where I have not left the house for weeks on end, and my relationship with my husband really deteriorated during those times. I wish I could tell you how I cured it, but I honestly don't know. What I do know, is that it takes baby steps to get there. It starts very, very small. For example, taking a shower when you really can't face the thought of it, or even if that's too much... just washing your face. Every day try to do something that you can't face the thought of doing.
I hope you feel better soon.
