Originally Posted by journeygal
I have all this insight, yet it still hurts and part of me still feels unworthy of being loved. Why is that?
Journey,
I don't know.
The only thing I can come up with is within my own personal experience.
I find I am capable of grasping quickly the recovery concepts and understanding what I need to do, to actively do to put them in place. I am capable of changing my own behavior. I will not actively or passively contribute to my son's addiction. I also have a desire not to allow his addiction to pull me into it's darkness and it almost did, and it could again, if I allow it.
I also find that grasping and implementing the concepts is not enough.
I find my 'emotional' self scrambling hard, very hard to 'catch up'.
Like Gabe said... "None of this is easy stuff"
warm hugs
sigh