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You are most welcome. I have read so much wisdom here that it's an honour to think that my experience may be useful to someone else.
On another note...throughout my 'relationship' with my AFWB, this song has repeatedly come to mind. To me it's source of strength. It was one of the first songs I learned to play after picking up a guitar after 20 odd years. Funnily enough...when I played it for AFWB he said it was one of his mother's favourite songs. His mom was with his father for 18 yrs. I don't know how long or how bad his alcoholism really was, but I know it was pretty darn awful. I've never asked but I suspect she thinks of the wife in the story is Alcohol. I do too.
Stay (Sugarland version)
Songwriter: Nettles, Jennifer;
I've been sitting here staring at the clock on the wall
And I've been laying here praying, praying she won't call
It's just another call from home
And you'll get it and be gone and I'll be crying
And I'll be begging you, baby, beg you not to leave
But I'll be left here waiting with my heart on my sleeve
Oh, for the next time we'll be here
Seems like a million years and I think I'm dying
What do I have to do to make you see she can't love you like me?
Why don't you stay? I'm down on my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely, don't I give you what you need?
When she calls you to go, there is one thing you should know
We don't have to live this way, baby, why don't you stay? Yeah
You keep telling me, baby there will come a time
When you will leave her arms and forever be in mine
But I don't think that's the truth
And I don't like being used and I'm tired of waiting
It's too much pain to have to bear to love a man you have to share
Why don't you stay? I'm down on my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely, don't I give you what you need?
When she calls you to go, there is one thing you should know
We don't have to live this way, baby, why don't you stay?
I can't take it any longer but my will is getting stronger
And I think I know just what I have to do
I can't waste another minute after all that I've put in it
I've given you my best, why does she get the best of you?
So next time you find you wanna leave her bed for mine
Why don't you stay? I'm up off my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely, you can't give me what I need
When she begs you not to go, there is one thing you should know
I don't have to live this way, baby, why don't you stay? Yeah, oh