Is it wrong that I enjoy it?
I'm trying to quit drinking (doing very well on day 3) but I keep asking myself the same questions:
Is it wrong to enjoy drinking?
Is it wrong that I'm better at socializing when I'm drunk?
Is it wrong that I'm more confident and have traditionally have made more friends when I'm drunk?
Is it wrong that I don't have half the chance of hooking up with girls sober than when I'm drunk (as scummy as it sounds)?
Is it wrong to admit drinking to a certain level does feel great?
Obviously black outs are awful and that seems to be the only option for me. But I'm having problems with the philsophical question of: If it is so bad for me, why does it seem so fun? Is it wrong to admit that it is fun? Have I been delusional this entire time and it was actually awful (everytime I've been able to drink to an acceptable level)?