My biggest trigger is feeling that I am not living up to my own expectations. When I am feeling guilty about this, I want to reach out to the A to save me from myself.
"I have not accomplished something--the A can save me from feeling this sense of failure."
How do you look down upon yourself? Over what issues? What bad habits? What makes you feel guilty about not having accomplished?
A lack of forward momentum will send us packing for the past...
Do you realize how far you have come in letting go? There is an amazing difference between this thread and your earlier ones...congrats!