He's using.
The gut is GOOD.
TRUST your gut.
My Ex Heroin addict boyfriend of eight years? Yeah, the gut-instinct that I had that was always spot on? That was the first thing he tried to tear down and have me question.
TRUST YOURSELF.
TRUST your GUT.
Don't play dumb.
And believe that HIS decisions will have VERY REAL consequences for you if you are not prepared mentally.
For instance, what dollydo said is EXTREMELY IMPORTANT.
Use protection if you're going to sleep with him.
KNOW that "gear" is slang for "dope" and "dope" is slang for heroin. Straight up.
Citric acid is used for IV heroin use.
Hunny...all these things lead to needles. And I'm sorry. Please be careful with yourself. After eight years I thought I could handle it all, do it all, seen it all. Nope. And next month I go to get tested because that guy that I stood by? That guy I thought just needed help? And understanding? And love? Well next month will be three months since that guy jabbed me with a needle during a fight, a needle he claimed wasn't his. Yup.
Don't have that be you.
Keep posting.
You have a HUGE support basis here.