Fenway, maybe it's time to give the 'no alcohol' option a shot? Take it off the table, shut the door, remove it as an option. Separate the drinking problem from the other problems. I had a big tangle of problems at my crisis time, and I couldn't find a free end anywhere, the knot just rolled and twisted and got even more tangled the more I wrestled with it. All these things that were outside of my control seemed to conspire against me.
The day came when I decided I would address my issues sober. I told myself that even if I could not control most of my problems, bending my elbow was one that was completely under my conscious control.
After a couple of weeks, my mood lifted, my problem solving brain got to work, the anxiety and constant feeling of panic disappeared and things got a whole lot clearer for me. My biggest problems shrank as my priorities shifted back to where I knew they should be. I know that this will happen for you too when you quit the alcohol.
You will quit drinking because you can. I have confidence in you, I really do.