I'm hearing that you're away from the exABF. 1 problem solved.
You say you don't know how to ask for help - seems like you're doing just fine. Getting on SR is a great 1st step. My opinion is that your 2nd should be AA, but there's also SMART and AVRT. Others can speak to them. The one that worked for me was AA.
Went to meetings where there were others .just. .like. .me. to talk to, to ask for help.
Got lots of phone numbers so I could call them to talk about my alcoholism whenever I felt the cravings. If I was talking to them, I wasn't drinking.
Got into the steps of AA and cleaned up my degenerate life. OK. Mostly. Some say I'm still somewhat crazy. Mom used to tell me, If you keep making faces like that, your face will freeze that way and you'll be stuck with it. I expect the crazyness is similar.
BTW - I know a young lady, locally here that came into AA in a similar mess. She put herself through University. Then landed an excellent job. So I know it's possible. Now you do too.