I listened to the beast. I let the addictive voice get a foot in the door.
It started with my birthday. I let it convince me that it was OK to have drinks since it was my birthday. And, once I had said OK to that, it was easy to give in the next time -when we went on holiday. Then, since I had done it on holiday, it really wasnt going to make a difference to do it again, and again...
I want to quit and I just need to make that decision firm once and for all. Problem is, I always feel that way and then the temptation gets the better of me.