Fen you can make this right.
You are 24!
You have the chance of being brilliant.
You do not need to be with someone like this.
Fast forward 10 years and you are still with him..
Your worries might be is he in jail? Has he spent all the money on drugs and how will we pay rent? Where is he, has he overdosed?
THAT IS NO WAY TO LIVE.
YOU DESERVE BETTER.
How are you going to feel when all your friends and people of the same age are celebrating milestones, achievements, wealth and health?
New marriages, new babies, new home, fabulous holidays?
In 10 years time, this situation with him will be tedious and tiring.
I should imagine you will resent him hugely for your life turning out the way it has.
Put yourself in your parents shoes.... if you had a child and she was doing what your doing, how would you feel? Do you think she deserved better? Could you predict how life might turn out? Would you want this for her?
24 is no age and you are lucky to have your parents.
Use this time to keep your head down, work hard and build for your future.
You have no children together.
You have no ties.
When you have ties it is not easy to leave, be free and live how you want to live.
Moping around and thinking of him and all the feelings that go with this will not help your drinking.
Does this make any sense?