I called my new sponsor tonight. Phew. She is really easy to talk to and it sounds like we'll be a good fit. She gave me an assignment to start working on step 1. She also said that it took her a year to fully grasp step 1. That made me feel so much better as it seems like everyone around me flew past step 1 and I am still at it. She also encouraged me to call another member. I know I need to get past this but I just hate the phone. So maybe I'll text someone and call it good. But that is probably not what she meant.