I just took a shower and was thinking about dependency, unhealthy relationships, resentment and such and I think I really need to work on staying away from her. If I do need to see her keep it brief become more self sufficient and I also think I should stop running to her when she needs someone. At this point she is preventing me from focusing on sobriety and I by taking care of her when she is drunk I am enabling her. I have to stop worrying whether or not she eats, or the house is clean. I do have to provide cat stuff but I dont need to shop for both of us. Shes been taking a ride on my food stamp card. I will cook the food already in freezer for both of us cause it makes my life easier. After that she is on her own. Im getting it that we both have to learn to take care of ourselves seperate from each other. I better do what I am saying or I am weaker than I think. 2 3/4 hours and counting till meeting