i found until i told people, it was never real. I'd say I'm off the sauce for a bit cause of (lent, new medication, etc) cause I didn't want to come clean. Last week I finally emailed my brother and two best friends and said, not dramatically but kinda funny, I've decided to give up drinking (they all knew it killed my sis) - so have some Odouls around for me and if you see me with a beer slap me or something!
Nothing weird, everyone supported me.... NOthing like what I expected. Now I have no "out" down the line like I always used to. My decision is made - I'm an alcoholic and I want to stop drinking forever.