She had me arrested and for something we were both at fault for but not in her mind and I went running back. I spent 22 days in jail she picked me up so I thought we might be ok, but she sent me off packing. I should be focusing on me only, but now I find myself chasing an unhealthy relationship on so many levels. when I go to visit I do the dishes cook for her etc.. Some days she loves me other days she hates me again. I leave with my head down and tail between my legs so depressed. Then I sit waiting for the phone to ring in hoping the drunk she has on is the nice Pat or better yet hoping she is sober but I havent seen her sober in at least 2 weeks and I heard she was drinking in excess the whole time I was gone. I have to break away from her and I know this. Im not even sure I miss her cause I love her or if it is my drinking buddy I miss. I am pretty confused