Good Morning my friends!
Welcome to all the newcomers, good to see so many joining the family! Best wishes to all of you! Read & post as often as possible...there's a great group of people on here to offer support anytime day or night.
lefthook & WWG, right there with you. I cannot explain why I went so backwards...no excuses. It's like I totally got derailed on my mind set...I need to get back on track. I loved how I felt that week that I was sober, & the feeling of pride that I had getting thru the weekend without caving was something I haven't felt in years.
I've definitely noticed a pattern with me. Every time I 'beat' my last sober time, that's when I cave. Sober days up to this point have been 1, 2, 4 & then 7. Like I'm 'rewarding' myself for making it a bit further?! Wow. Pretty ridiculous, I know. Although I still need to take it a day at a time, I definitely have to focus on making changes at that point so I don't keep sabatoging all of the hard work that I put in those early days.
I do know in my heart & soul I don't want to give up. Sooo...here I go again!!
Hope everyone has a great day!!