It's hard to admit, honestly. For me, the proof is in the pudding. I mean, you get to a point where you can't mess up anymore and live happily. Alcohol masks things I don't want to deal with, so I drink. The unmanageable part is that when I do something stupid BECAUSE of alcohol, I drink more to cover the shame of whatever I did. That's a problem.
Don't get me wrong, I can stop after I start a lot of the time. Drinking until I pass out isn't every time. The point is those things happen AT ALL. It shows the alcohol is controlling me, not the other way around.