B&B
I'm sorry your going through this. You need to take care of you. I know that feeling of how could I allow this to happen and I feel so disappointed in myself. For me, I believe these thoughts are part of the growing process. We need to get here to realize that only we control our destiny. The fact that we realize it and find ourselves again is what is important. I take it one day at a time, I make an effort to only engage in conversations that I want to for me and only do things because I want to not because someone else wants me to. Only he can save his life. Only we can save ourselves. Stay strong and work on you. You deserve it.