I do not have a lot of experience with meetings except for the few that I attended with my father when he was in recovery. I do know a lot of people that have benefited and found true sobriety through AA though! I sure hope you hear from some of them soon. In the meantime, just wanted you to know that this is being read and we are thinking about you. Sorry I can't offer more. I wish you all the best. Hope you find the answers and peace that you seek.