Kelle, it took me a while to really believe I could stay sober...until then, I did the work anyway, day by day.
If you don't want to drink again, you can make that happen - make a commitment every day 'I will not drink no matter what'...make healthy choices....use the support that's here.
You can do this
I'm glad you're feeling better SFMS.
Maybe counselling could be good? it helped me to talk about some of the stuff that was racing round and round my head.
With a little ringing around who knows? you might find a place that allows kids, or has a creche or something...
and I know you love your dog but you can't be housebound because of him....anything you might find would just be for an hour or two with travel.
It's your call, naturally, but I think it's worth considering
DB...not sure what happened but you're not alone here. Stay true to yourself.
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