I have considered talking to my Dad. I just feel that he would blame himself and feel horrible. Maybe a little down the road I will tell him. Ive been talking to friends and my sister, they were shocked to hear I get like this when I drink, they see me happy and having a good time. Its when I would get home to my bf that any negative emotions would come pouring out. I cant believe I actually hit him, I dont want to eat, cant sleep. Sounds dramatic, but I just hate myself right now.