Blue, I can only speak for myself, but I know I had to hit a bottom before I could even consider staying sober. Maybe this is yours. I hope so. I hurt everyone one way or another when I was drinking and a few times I was physically abusive to others. You've got a resource there in your dad...have you considered talking to him about your drinking problem? He might have some insight that you can use. Regardless, keep coming back here and posting. SR is a great place to find support. Wish you the best.
--Fenris.