Copperfield, I wrote a post why alcoholics can't moderate: it's
here.
Short summary, due to the progressive nature of alcoholism and the effects of kindling and tolerance, your body has changed. It doesn't process alcohol the way it did when you started drinking, there is no will involved. Kindling and tolerance are not a myth, but medical conditions that have been well studied.
It's a mistake to make it a mental battle, something I did for years. A diabetic will always have to take insulin and a person with peanut allergy can't eat peanuts, ever. We alcoholics can't drink alcohol, ever again. If we do, the progressive nature of our disease will take us further into the abyss.
Today is a perfect day for day 1! Go for it!
