I went to my first meeting.
I was very nervous and ashamed when I got there. I didn't really know what to expect.
People took turns speaking. Sometimes it was jibberish. Sometimes it was a little too religious for my own preferences. Other times it was very interesting and relevant to what I've experienced.
I wanted to leave early at first. Toward the end I wanted it to go on for longer.
A couple veterans came up to me afterwards. I told them I was still drinking. They were still very supportive and gave me some practical advice about getting over my physical dependence in the short to medium term.
I have mixed feelings about AA. Overall I think it's positive. My atheism might be a barrier. But I think it'll help.
A veteran told me "you're ready." I think I'm not quite there yet, but very very close.