it is actually, literally, crazy making...the emotional trauma of loving someone who is struggling with addiction
to break away means that one needs to face the grief of the end of the relationship which is an emotional process.
but to stay in a place of emotional danger is to continue being subjected to trauma
trauma, recurring, untreated, creates craziness
ptsd, borderline symptoms, paranoia, fear, doubt, suspicion, instability...etc etc etc
it literally IS crazy making
when I finally realized the profound impact on my own long term well being over the affects of being with someone who smoked crack...
who was an active addict
I finally realized why I wanted to save myself
I did not want to continue down the spiral into more insanity.
freedom, healing and peace to you.