i think i just got rejected by a crackhead
I need a little support now...esp some perspective from people who understand recovery..
My husband is 100 days clean and gung ho in recovery
He does like 5 meetings, book study, outpatient..sponsor...etc and is always throwing recovery concepts around
we've been fighting over a trip he hid from me with his old friends that still use... he says his sponsor is ok with it and he has a plan. he refused to discuss trip with me... it was non negotiable.
I left for a week vacation we were not on best of terms but ok
i check his phone... he called an escort 3 nights into trip (i don't trust him.. was actually just looking for dealers number)
I couldn't handle and broke up with him over email.
He at first wouldn't admit escort... but talked about how i needed more alanon meetings and how he found me an alanon sponsor....
then he talked about how my need to be a martyr has destroyed the relationship as much as his narcissm...i believed in him for a year and kept on trying to get him into recovery
I had a soft moment and said if he wanted to try brutal honesty and counseling.. we could try.. but he would still have to move out.
He REFUSED....said this conversation was putting him in him a bad place and his recovery comes first....
Im cutting him off... I don't know this monster... to add insult to injury.. he is going to try to get money in divorce (he won't get anything... we lived apart most of marriage and he had income) he is in the process of moving our
what the hell just happened to me? its almost like the recovery 12 step stuff has made it worse... Im done... i just need perspective on what the hell happened... oh he is clean of any substances... they **** test him weekly at his outpatient.