Chard, no beat ups here... Can't tell you how many times I said never again. I'd recommend starting fresh, look back at this relapse and learn from it. For me (while it's still early) it's about a plan, with safety nets, supports etc. this last time has been different for me with distinct actions. I went to IOP, meet with a counselor once a week, and am going to my first aa meeting today at noon... I'm on day 47 and going strong...