Originally Posted by
Arpeggioh 
I've detoxed many times over the years, always with very few symptoms...and have a prescription for Xanax that I use mostly for hangovers, but they also help with withdrawal...honestly, I'm looking for....I don't know....a kick in the ass? A reason to live? A promise of happiness from AA? Sorry, I'm just searching...
more than a promise of happiness.
We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others. That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self-seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.
Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us - sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them.
you may want to google "big book online" and read. the 1st 164 pgs are the program that gives us life. the rest is personal stories and i will guarantee you will find yourself described in the book.
its been an awesome life for me. 2 days before gettin into AA, the pain of getting drunk had finally exceeded the pain of reality and i was desperate. it was go to AA and do wht they say or take another drink and kill myself. i am still here 7+ years later and sober. it has been a blessing and so greatful i have a life today.