Originally Posted by Arpeggioh

This can't go on...I know you've heard this story a million times here, that's why I'm posting...

I Can't Do This Anymore!! I can feel my muscles atrophying, can feel my internal organs hardening, can see my life spiraling down the toilet...and see no end in sight.

A fifth of vodka + every night, for many months, at 51 years of age, is simply suicidal...and I'm not ready to die! I need some hope...

Fought AA for thirty years, just not for me, sober on and off...starting to think it might be the only thing that can save my life...and "you people" seem to be the only ones that understand the pain, and can save me because I'm incapable of saving myself at this point...

I'm finally desperate enough to reach out to Anyone who might be able to help....sorry for the drama! But I'm sore afraid!!!