Maybe you should just try committing to a certain amount of time with no drinking, and during that time keep going to counseling, or AA, and whatever you think would work best. Then see how you feel. I did that, and it wasn't as scary as saying that I was never going to drink again.
I was going to say that Planned Parenthood has a sliding scale here for emergency pills. Maybe they do there as well. Also, you may want to go there anyhow for testing. I had to do that before I know it blows and is scary though.
I know drinking eases the pain and has it fun moments, but it also sucks so bad to wake up with the hangover, the blackouts, the expense/cost, juggling work and/or school while boozing, feeling like crap about yourself, etc...
Just an idea
Hugs,
MC