Welcome back. There is no "going back" to a little bit of drinking, which now you know.
That which doesn't support our recovery, undermines it.
Originally Posted by
wolf99 Now I have a wonderful fiance that I love...
Including loved ones. You call him wonderful, but he's hurting your sobriety.
Perhaps it is time step it up. Maybe surround yourself with recovered alcoholics. Non-drinkers. People who won't tell you it's okay to drink.
Else you will.