hi backbeat,
I recognize how you feel - I have had years of sobriety and then drank again too. It is harder to quit each time (I drank for four years this time, now sober for one year, after 9 years of sobriety). I still wrestle with being lonely, but I know that drinking sure isn't the answer. I am slowly building my life back up, but what doggonecarl said is right on. Welcome and best wishes. And oh - thanks for your post to me about my cat Kramer.