The worst part is not what happens,we can ALWAYS deal with that.
No,the worst part is not knowing--allowing the imagination to run amok.
For the time being,those night terrors are not for you.The situation is
neither a perfect nor an optimum one---but it is stable,safe,and amenable
to self examination/introspection.The opportunity/window for change will
never be greater,as I truly believe there is no way out of this nightmare
without jarring change or equally jarring consequences.