Man, I appreciate all the comments and helpful insight. Today was day one of her really commiting and atleast communicating that she loves me and wants to stop not only for us, but herself. I hope this is true. Here's the kicker though. She is a waitress/bartender and works late evening hours, so this is what has concerned me aaaalways. It's so easy to just stay after work with co workers and get tossed up. I'll know when I don't recieve that phone call when I know she's off work. I'm counting on her, this maybe my last real push to save my relationship. Hoping for the best.