I'm drinking because I have a problem
Why not try
not drinking because you have a problem Paul?
If you're really having difficulty making a decision about what to do, why not give sobriety a chance - period a target - 30 60 90 days - that way you can make an better informed decision about which way of life is best for you.
Yes, it will be hard not to drink, but it's nothing that the rest of us haven't faced
Each and everyone of us has stood on that metaphorical cliff and wondered what our lives would be like if we jumped off...everyone of us has been scared to death about change.
None of us would recommend the leap if we didn't think our own lives have been enriched, and that yours will be too.
As for forum moderation - to this point neither Anna or I have had to remove a single post here (yours or anyone elses) for rule violation.
I think that's a glowing testament to everyone involved and I see no reason why that should not continue
No need to make this thread about other people Paul - this thread is about you, after all
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